So there's this thing about OCD. If I'm thinking about something that is distressing me, or I have something to worry about, and I forget about it for too long and am relaxed? My brain will remind me out of the blue about it and not let me forget about it. I think I'm hitting a wall with how much of that I can handle. The one therapist I was able to see about this did recommend having a set amount of time to think about whatever I'm hyper-focusing on and then consciously not thinking about it after that. I'm trying to do that tonight, it's never worked before but I gotta start trying again. I can't take this anymore.